i n s e c u r i t y

FRESH START

2005-04-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

hai...finally clear away all my past memories...

ready for a fresh start...

sometimes i really wish i can go back into time

to change lots of things can prevent them from happenin...

i mean who wouldn't wan to do that...

but i really regret doin lots of things...stupid things...

and if i can really go back

i would learn to cherish some things more

and would not do things that hurt people around me

or do things that end up make me losing my friendship...

but it is from our mistakes that we learn and grow...

oh well...no use for regrets now...

Anyway,

sorry for not updating my blog often...

real lazy at times...haha...

( U happy now MR GOH??!!)

haha...

my mom is sick...

she very seldom fall sick...

so it is quite serious this time...

really hope she can get well soon...

saw this on a book

"Sticks and stones can break my bones

but words cannnot hurt me"

this is SO NOT true...

miss ya!!!

2005-02-27T02:12:00.000+08:00

my father is in KL now...

miss him so much...

the house seem so quiet without him

i don't dare go to the kitchen at night

when he is not at home...

but he is comin back tml!!!

yahoo!!!

lookin forward...

Night out~

2005-02-27T02:01:00.000+08:00

last night was very fun...

slept one hour onli...

spent the rest of the time chattin...

haha better not write too much bout this...

secret...

shh...~

anyway white noise is not very nice pls don't go and watch

unless u got extra cash to spare..

today went old folks home

do CIP

quite fun though i feel quite guilty

we end up talkin more within ourselves

rather than talkin to the old people

but i realise something

my dialect still can juz pass

i understand n can speak a bit...

not bad leh!!!

haha...

but i think our presence there

make the old folks real happy

they lik so bored there

feel so gloomy lik tt

hope at least we brought some colours into their lives

at least for this afternoon...

i don't think i ever would send my parents to such places next time

dunno why...

but some elderly enjoy themselves there a lot...

cos they have frens...

but what jian say is true oso

no point they stay at home

stare at the wall everyday

al least goin to such places

they have frens n activities to do...

now sick...

runny nose...

think i have almost half NTUC plastic bag full of my tissues...

behind schedule!!!

i'm supposed to be doin dr koh tutorial now...

so stressed for koh's test

hate those on nerves...

ARG!!!

STUPID SLEEP MONSTER

GO AWAY!!!

thinkin back about Chingay... (o_0)

2005-02-27T01:43:00.000+08:00

haha getting v v v v lazy nowadays to blog
tt is the problem with blog
u have to update often if not v sian...
but the prob is i v lazy...if not is v busy...
with all the endless reports and tests!!!
hai...

well let's summarise wat happened...
chingay was great fun!!!
realli...didnt regret joinin at all...
made 2 new frens through junel...
victor and samuel...
both nice guys...
victor thanks for the ride home...
dunno how people will think
if i sat the bus with the paint on my face...
haha...
but the teachers v v v nice!!!
they cried durin the buffet tt night...
think too touched le...or maybe sad the thing is over?
i know i'm quite sad...
lik wait so long
so fast over le...
anyway...back to chingay...
apparently agnes darlin was there...
st john duty...
but didnt manage to see her...
and hengster...nvm la...u no need apologise...
haha...
apparently agnes say our dance was the silly dance
haha...
but i think it is cute but silly la...
i kind of lik it in fact...

but our costume was quite simple...
WAH!!! the beijing model's costume was lik o_o
SO NICE LOR!!!
haha...but on the bright side...
ours is comfortable...
we can run in it...
don't think they can...
haha...
we felt lik stars tt day with people wantin to take pic with us
and when we stop to take pic
will have other alien photographers
dunno pop up from where to take oso...
but feels nice to be lik a star for a day...
haha...
b4 the thing start
we walked up n down to see the other performers
n took pictures with them...
got this lady talk to us in japanese...
haha...she say until so xin ku...
tryin to tell us her uncle from japan or something
then when she say finish
samuel told her "we are singaporeans"
and she was lik "oh...ok...byby!"
haha...weird reaction weird lady too...

when dancin we always out of line
and me bein at the side
have to look out for the alignment
so xin ku...
but nevertheless
we had lots of fun!!!
the mask was chokin
we can hardly breath in it...
and got some parts i was busy waving to the audience
then forget to dance...
haha...stupid...
but we sure danced a longer way than the preview...
until sweatin in the end...
but on the bus
everyone was cheering!!!
success!!!
back to JAS got buffet
then they showed us the video of us durin practices and all...
there was free beer...haha they muz be $$
we got the chingay t-shirt!!!
so happy cos i realli lik it alot...

think i'm goin to miss all the times in jas
haha...all the stupid bus ride where i get so nervous everytime
the moment i board the bus...
all the practices...
chingay frens...
goin to miss ya guys!

chinatown madness~part 2

2005-02-06T17:18:00.000+08:00

went with my mom sis and bro to chinatown again yest...

GREAT FUN!!!

love to go there with my mom

cos they basically know the layout of chinatown

and i think we realli covered all the stores thoroughly!!!

we went and eat the famous yummy yong tau hu, curry noodles,

the dry mee pok and the duck rice...

the duck's skin is so crispy and juicy and yummy...wah!!!!! cannot tahan!!!

and it was all lik so cheap for great food

so this proves that great food need not be expensive!!!

we bought a lot of stuff...

my mom bought lots of plants cos they were so cute...

my sis n i bought a few shirts...

we bought keropok, garlic peanuts and many many more...

my sis bought the "feng che" i forget wat is it called in english

(it will rotate when there is wind)for my mom

cos it is supposed to bring good luck to the person

heard it wasn't goin to be a very good year for pigs next year...

next year is a great year for cows though...

oh ya...i read this somewhere

next year is not a good year for the love life of rabbits

"u won't be meeting your ideal mate next year.

for those who are attached, extra care and concern must be put

into the relationship to sustain it...

fights and quarrels are goin to be frequent..."

oh no...

anyway all this is just for reference only...

people should not be too affected by it

if not even if it is a great year

u will be too paranoid to even enjoy the new year ahead of u...

okok...back to the trip...nothin much to say though..

got this new temple that is goin to be build

think it is goin to look great!

and the next time i go

i MUST try the popsicles and sasuages!

happy new year to all!!!

chinatown madness~

2005-02-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

after a day of lek jia jia and japanese test
HOLIDAYS ARE FINALLY HERE!!!
YAHOO!!!
i look forward to this holiday so badly...
finally can rest...after i finish my 10 projects...
haha...
ya project madness!!! so many!
but rest and play comes first...
haha i can see myself leavin the projects to the last few days...
i'll try my best to complete by CNY
TRY onli...

anway on fri we went chinatown!!!
too bad i can't join them for the dirt cheap sushi
cos of stupid japanese test
had to eat cup noodles which was yummy as well...
haha...
anyway it was sweet of them to leave a fish ice cream for me...
went and walked the night market...
alot of people...
so many things to see...
i think the whole point of chinese new year to me is not the red packets or goodies
is the trip to chinatown
just love the atmosphere there
so lively and joyous
so fun!!!
as the first time there since the stores start openin...
we had the taiwan dan zhu drink!
houston was the only one buyin new year stuff...
but it was fun just walkin and lookin at all the weird stuff they sell
i still remember last time got this fat man
dressin as a rabbit and shoutin
"rrr~~~~raBBIT hua sheng...(rabbit brand peanuts)"
and it was so funny and cute...haha...
but some hawker quite pitiful
scream and scream till their voice are hoarse juz to get customers
some even slash the prices of some items to unbelievable prices
wonder if they even earn...

well we didnt cover much that night...
as in we didnt walk much...only a portion only and we went home le...
it was quite fun though overall...

huimei is in penang now!!!
don't miss me ya???

haha...i bet u won't..
take care!

sleep monster attack!!!

2005-01-31T01:06:00.000+08:00

wanted to write about yestersday dinner and dance

but i too slpy le...

i will try write asap...

i hope i won't forget the details!!!

haha...

anyway we had LOTS of fun last night!!!

and i'm so SO PROUD to be from optometry!!!!

the course lik so united...

and the teachers are all so nice...and happenin!!!

esp dr koh surprisingly!!!

haha...

to be continued...

THE night...

2005-01-29T16:27:00.000+08:00

ya i'm sorry people...

too busy to update my blog...

that's why was having second thoughts when setting this up

i'm a v v v v lazy person...

haha...

okok...i'm FINALLY goin to write about the dinner and dance night..

but that day was very hectic for me...

went to JAS to collect my chingay costume!!!

so cute the costume!!!

haha...

then rush all the way to my aunt's place to do my hair...

she was busy so her friend did it for me...

i ended up lookin lik dorathy having a bad hair day..

or a poodle...

my hair was sepaerated into two

and curled into 2 big lumps!!!

haha...

my secondary school prom was quite terrible too...

i ended up lookin so plastic because the makeup was too thick!!

anyway i rushed home

and had 15min to shower,doll up and change onli

so i rushed lik mad...and broke my necklace into half!

had to wear another one...haha...

it was bcos of me that everyone was late...

so sorry to houston,titus and sylvia!

we reached the hotel at about 6plus goint to 7 i guess...

the thing wasn't even started yet...

dunno why i felt out of place...

but everyone sure look good that night!

anyway we swapped tables with our seniors

and they ended up winnin the table draw

luckily is cup noodles!!

haha...

well the night past in a blur...

emm let me recall:

1. juilana look very pretty that night

2. the best dressed girl was very sexy

3. titus guessed the advirtisement wrongly

4. i accidentally spilled the tea on weijian well tryin to cheer for someone

5. houston took part in the best dressed guy

6. his necktie was crooked after tryin to take off his coat on stage

7. my face look extremely red that night...

8. the food was nice compared to my sec prom

9. there was this pretty waitress but she wasn't servin our table (to the boys' disappointment)

10. a middle aged lady served us (to the boys' disappointment again!)

11. weijian can do a very funny impersination of kiat wee's dad (no offence)

12. yuxuan n alvin left early due to tummy ache

13. sylvia didnt eat the mango puddin when she wanted to!!!

14. went to clark quay

15. had fun dancin

16. great band!

17. was quite a fun night...

18. i wan to thank weijian v v v much that night for keepin all our stuffs think we muz have been very fan!!! haha...

19. and also thank you to weijian for lettin me eat the fish w/o the skin

20. thanks houston for the ride...

21. dr koh seriously live up to her hip hop lor mai kai name she totally rocks!

haha...

22. she totally kissed...KISSED houston...

haha...

to houston:

distinction for introductory to pathology is in the bag!

i reached home about 4am and something creepy happened...

everywhere was so quiet...

i was fumblin to find my keys in my bag

suddenly i heard footsteps nearin

my GOODNESS!!!

i was totally freaked out!!

my hands were shakin so badly when i tried to open the door fast

the footsteps got louder and louder...
i thought got some pervert or something...

then when i finally opened the door

i pluck up the courage to look

it was...it was...

my NEIGHBOUR....

.........

scare the hell out of me...

my mom and sis laughed after i told them wat happened...

oh well...wat a endin...

haha...

the end~

just another day...

2005-01-29T01:43:00.000+08:00

just another boring day at school today...

had ms soh's test

P.S (thanks alot Peiboon!!! u know why...haha...)

but before tt i saw someone today

emm think is da nai's ex

turns out she is sylvia's gems project group member...

it's a small small world...

went for japanese class almost fall asleep

mu zu ka shi desu...(duno correct anot...)

very excited bout tml dinner and dance...

dunno how it will turn out to be...

hope i won't look ridiculous...

really...

but before that got chingay practice then so rush

stupid la...why things always on same day...

hai~

so muz rush a little...

here is an advance sorry to: SLYVIA, HOUSTON AND TITUS

if we are late tml bcos of me...

which i think most likely will...

i'm sorry!!!!!!

wahaha...

will update on the blog bout the dinner and dance...

i will take lots of pic...

P.S: guohao wants me to mention him in my blog

so i did...haha...

Dear God,

hope tml all things go well...

Amen

God bless all!

sick~~~

2005-01-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

today i'm sick

sian...

i very weak de

always sick

ya realli is ALWAYS

flu and sore throat...

first time i felt that i sick on wrong day...

2 tests comin up...

hope can get well tml so i can study for them...

if not always feel so tired and sleepy...

hope sore throat won't let me have fever...always lik tt de...

dunno how can i get sore throat

i don't eat fried stuff

i force myself eat tons of fruits everyday

i drink bout 1litre of water every night...

WEIRD!!!

hope i GET WELL SOON!!!

Dear God,

please let me get well soon.

Amen

monday blues...

2005-01-25T01:25:00.000+08:00

think i am addicted to this blog thingy now

but i dunno for how long

think i will get sick of it in the long run

haha...

i realise today blog is a very good source for digging gossips too (u all know who i am referin to)

first is friendster now is this

terrible...

i know...

but honestly it is fun...

anyway chris test suck today...

BIG TIME!!!

stupid questions...we oso didnt learn much bout tt part...

give all the "cold door" questions...

nvm...

anyway today wasted the night away dilly dallying...

end up doin project until this late...

haha...tt's me...

and i have not completed the report yet!!!

my friend is in trouble today...

dunno how to help her...

realli worried for her...

hope she is ok...

God, please guide her through this tough period.

Amen.

lazy~

2005-01-22T19:43:00.000+08:00

haha it's me again...

i should be studyin now but instead i'm lazing around here...

it's not that i don't like Christopher or anything

he is a really nice guy

but his subject really quite sucky

so many things to learn

then quite boring

hope can do well for his test

hai~~~

went for Chingay practice again today

quite fun though not many people go

CAN'T WAIT FOR THE ACTUAL THING TO COME!!!

YAHOO~~~

haha...ya i'm crazy...

D and D is next week

can hardly wait too...

hope i won't feel weird in my dress

or at least i hope won't feel out of place

haha...

well sorry for not updating my blog

been kind of hectic these few weeks

but i will try my best to update...

nothin much happened last week

we had our RWP presentation on fri

think it went ok...

but the fun part was we got to wear formal

and we went to marche to eat after our lessons

14 of us went

it was quite fun but too bad titus had to leave early

well basically i had to walk around the whole day in my sister's heels

and i think i can hardly feel my legs after i reached home

they were aching so badly

wonder how some girls can tahan so long...

my GOODNESS!!!

i will try update pictures on my blog...

but before i can do that

i must figure out how to use it

haha...

okok...goin to study for Chris test le...

hope Mr Chou don't date me for tea...

to TOA PAYOH and back again~SUAY!!

2005-01-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

think after today i might develop phobia for bus

haha...u will know why...

went to titus house to do project

after tt went clementi to eat

went to top up farecard and only had $5 in my wallet

then went to take 154...yup 154...to get to JAS for the chingay practice

for people who are not street smart like me out there..

for your information 154 do not go to Japanese Association

it goes to EUNOS

i was on the bus don't dare to sleep scared tt i will miss my stop

oso i was worried i was in the wrong direction (luckily the direction was correct)

i saw 74 on the bus but i tot since my farecard not much money

SAVE money and don't get off since i THOUGHT it will go there...

but i was WRONG

SUPER WRONG

i start to feel tt i might be lost when the bus did not turn at the bend tt says ADAM ROAD

it went onto PIE instead i think

and i went ALL THE WAY to somewhere at TOA PAYOH and Macperson Road

i was so scared cos i was lost in somewhere and i had no money

so no choice i crossed the overhead bridge and sat 151 back to Bukit Timah

and i crossed another overhead bridge to take 74

and finally i tot i was safe when i successfully board the RIGHT bus 74

i was WRONG AGAIN

i was on the bus and i kept lookin out of the window

tryin hard to spot the pink JAS buildin

but who knows SO MANY buildings are in pink

and by the time i saw the sign

i already missed the busstop outside JAS

talk about unlucky!!!

then i quickly pressed the bell

but the bus was lik halfway throu the expressway to TOA PAYOH le

luckily out of no where got another busstop

then LUCKILY there was no one there

cause i literally shouted

"ARGH!!! why am i so SILLY AND STUPID!!!!"

and i almost felt lik banging my KT head on the pillar

so i crossed ANOTHER overhead bridge to sit 74 again

the moment i got up the bus

i pressed the doorbell already

i DON'T WANT to risk missin the stop again

i tired and sick of changin buses

FINALLY REACHED MY DESTINATION at 3.00pm...

i was 1 hour late despite leavin clementi at 1.15pm

then i went to toilet and saw some girls in chingay too

they are changin

so i changed too

WRONG MOVE!!!

i'm the ONLY ONE tt changed

everyone else didn't change AT ALL

and i look so funny in white shoes, white shorts, white shirt

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel so weird

regretted changin

but wat to do????? so silly of me...

but the rehersal was fun

so overall is ok...

What a day...tirin...but fun!

i'm so silly

Really...

No of buses rides sat today: 6
No of overheadbridge crossed: 4
No of stupid people: 1
No of times i felt lik slappin myself: countless

P.S: hey titus if u are readin this, i wan to say thank you for helpin me and it is NOT your fault so don't feel bad about it...i won't blame u cause it is my fault...it is juz me..hehe... :p

monday BLUEZ~

2005-01-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

i really hate sundays...

not that i don't like the free day at home

it's juz that sunday always mark the end of the weekend and the start of a new week

which means ANOTHER WEEK OF WORK AHEAD OF US

ARG!!!

haha...but whether sucky anot life goes on...

went to bugis this sunday to buy some canned food for new year

it was SUPER HEAVY...

and my itchy hand went and swing the plastic bag

and it hit my leg...

PAIN!!!

so terrible...now got bit blue mark le

think i deserve it haha...

and i fell asleep on the bus STANDING UP

this is not the first time this happen

so pai sei!!! hope no one saw it cos my legs will suddenly turn jelly

and i would wake up in a shock...terrible...

wonder how much sleep i need...

no matter how much i sleep oso feel tired haha...think alot of ppl oso lik tt ba...

well sch quite sucky today...but i managed to survive it...haha...

ate the mac new burger not bad though quite messy...

got new project to do...

NOW HAVE 3 PROJECTS!!!!

muz better start on them soon...

YAHOO~~

2005-01-08T16:50:00.000+08:00

i'm so glad i plucked up the courage and went to the chingay practice...

ALONE

yup...surprising right??

i was so scared and nervous at first that

i almost wanted to turn back when the taxi reached JAS (place we have practice)

ya taxi, wasted my $4.60...so ulu the place...

but i'm realli v PROUD of myself haha...

just like the japan trip to miyazaki

goin alone

makin new GREAT frens...haha...

made a new fren today...junel (unique name right?)

can't wait for the actual chingay to come...

we are dancin this cat+hamster like cute dance

hope all turn out well...

Oh ya...i didnt realise decorating a blog is so difficult

but choosin a blogskin is so fun

so many to choose from!

tml will be a better day...

first time~

2005-01-08T01:58:00.000+08:00

everyone has many first time

so this is my first time writing in this blog. i used to have this open diary but i forget the address,

user name and password already so i have no choice but to create a new one...ok enough of the

boring stuff...to my friends who are reading this i will try to update my blog regularly if i can...

(after i figure out how to use this stupid thing...)

so ciaox~